Yes well as the name implies I am an awful university student. I mean really I am, I want a high distinction average, but I'm taking no steps to achieve it, I have a exams in one week, yet I have literally not studied, and at current have no inclination to, and I have spent the entirety of last week, when I should have been studying, laying in bed and watching crap.
I have no idea where all my motivation has gone, but I'd rather like it back, why because I still have all the same dreams, and continue to make big dreams, but I'm not putting in any of the work, I never do my homework, and instead of figuring out the physics problems, I google the questions to see if I can copy off someone else. Essentially I am what I've always loathed-lazy. Now I am a lot of bad things, but one thing that I always used to pride myself is that I worked hard. And I did, but for some reason in Uni, I don't anymore.
Part of it might be the whole independence thing, ie now that there are no teachers chasing me up on assignments, I don't do the work, and while I do admit a lot of the work I put into subjects in high school was not to disappoint the teachers, especially after they had put in some much effort into teaching us, which I don't feel anymore, but in high school I had goals, real tangible goals that I worked towards-that another thing, since graduation is so far away, and that employment thing and blah, they don't seem as real, as say the HSC, because I was going to get the results soon, and they were going to directly affect me soon.
But I think the main thing is that I just hate uni, like really really hate it. I find it so easy, and not challenging, although its not like I find the questions easy, I just find the concepts so mundane, I want to THINK about things, and all I'm doing is learning formula, and because its takes little brain power I don't engage in the material,
And sometimes it is just so incredibly hard to get motivated, and even when I am motivated its just hard to work, like it's not like I have any real pressing concerned with my time, I just can't bring myself to do the work, anyway rant kinda over
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